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[27 May 2006|10:32pm]
I jumped out of an airplane at 15,000 feet today.
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Holyfuckingsummer. [02 May 2006|09:14am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Well, that ended quickly.

For the next few months I'll be around, until I move into my apartment in July and school starts again. I'll sort of be half living in Orlando and half in Melbourne, so try to catch whichever half of me is... around.

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New TOOL! [15 Apr 2006|01:37pm]
[ mood | awed ]

The new Tool single Vicarious hit the internet this week. It starts airplay on the radio Monday, 4/17. Make sure you listen so you can tell me how awesome it is. Or just AIM me, and I'll hook you up. It's one of the best Tool songs ever. 10,000 Days, the new Tool album, comes out May 2.

I own the TV
Cause tragedy thrills me
Whatever flavor
It happens to be
Like killed by the husband,
Drowned by the ocean,
Shot by his own son,
She used the poison in his tea.
I kiss him goodbye.
That's my kind of story.
It's no fun until someone dies.

Don't look at me
Like I am a monster.
Frown out your one face,
But with the other
Stare like a junkie
Into the TV
Stare like a zombie
While the mother holds her child,
Watches him die,
Hands to the sky crying, "Why, oh, why?"

Cause I need to watch things die from a distance,
Vicariously I live while the whole world dies,
You all need it to enjoy life.

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Convince me. [10 Apr 2006|02:40pm]
Someone, somewhere, convince me I'm wrong about something. I know it's possible; it's happened many times before. Please, I'm begging you, win a fucking argument with me. Catch me in a fallacy of logic, expose my underlying bias, leave me speechless. If you don't think you can, then can you make me think? That'll be fine, I can do the rest myself. Just do something. Hell, you get to pick the fucking topic!

"You see, I'm a philosopher, and I'm not going to argue very much, because if you don't argue with me, I don't know what I think. So if we argue, I say 'Thank you,' because owing to the courtesy of your taking a different point of view, I understand what I mean. So I can't get rid of you." - Alan Watts
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[22 Mar 2006|02:32am]
[ mood | disappointed ]


1. Did you have a new year's resolution this year? No.
2. Who kissed you at midnight? Syd Barrett.
3. Does it snow where you live? No.
4. Do you like hot chocolate? Yes.
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop? No, doubt I ever will.


1. Who was your valentine in 2006? N/A.
2. What did your valentine get you? N/A
3. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class? My mom did.
5. Do you care if the groundhog see's its shadow or not? Only if the groundhog cares.


1. Are you Irish? Probably not.
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day? I forgot this year.
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2006? Slept, sick.
4. Are you happy when winter is pretty much over? What winter?


1. Do you like the rain? I love it.
2. Will you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year? Likely.
3. Do you get tons of candy on easter? An ordinate amount.
4. Do you celebrate 4-20? Fucking right.

1. What's your favorite kind of flower? Heavenly Blue Morning Glory.
2. Do you like the spring? Yeah, minus the allergies.
3. Finish the phrase: "spring forward...____" crawl back.
4. What is the first spring color that comes to mind? new-leaf green.

1. What year did you graduate from school? 2005
2. Did you go on any vacations last June? No.
3. Did you realize nothing special happens in June? I bought my SRT-4 in June.

1. What will you do on the 4th of July? Probably something some one else invites me to do.
2. Do you go on any vacations during this month? I don't have money for these things, ask my parents.
3. Do you Blast the A/C all day? If I have to.

1. Will you do anything special to end off your summer? Get stoked for more college?
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '05? The part where I graduated.
3. Did you have sunburn? Several times.
4. Do you go to the beach a lot? Yeah.

1. Did you attend school/college in '05? More than one.
2. Who is/was your favorite teacher in 05? N/A.
3. Do you like fall better than summer? Yes, it's cooling off.

1. What was your favorite halloween costume ever? Hunter S. Thompson.
2. What's your favorite candy? Gobstoppers. Then Skittles. Then Warheads Rips. Then... you get it.
3. What did you dress up like this year? Nothing.

1. Whos house did you go to for thanksgiving? My dad's, I think.
2. Do you love stuffing? Sometimes.
3. What are you thankful for? Consciousness.

1. Do you celebrate Christmas? Spiritually, no. Materialistically, fuck yes.
3. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe? Probably.
4. What do you want this year for Christmas? World peace. And green peices of paper.
5. Do you like cold weather? It doesn't get cold in FL, but yes.

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The Bled v2.0 [15 Mar 2006|01:33am]
Saw the Bled again Sunday night, at Will's Pub this time. Much smaller venue than House of Blues. Nick and I made it all the way up to the right front of the stage, perhaps 1-2 feet from both the band members and the right speaker. I'm still deafened. I screamed along to every song, and James took notice, sticking the mic into my face once, and leaning in 6 inches from my face two other times so I could scream along. Definently the best concert of my life. The Bled fucking rip.
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[24 Feb 2006|10:39am]
[ mood | discontent ]

Why is everything so hollow?

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NEWSFLASH [10 Feb 2006|03:11am]
[ mood | awake ]

It's 3:11 AM and I have class at 9:30 AM. Calculus, to be exact.

I'm going to go get in my car, pack up a bowl, crank the volume on some Tool, and take a nice drive. Because it will make me happy, and because I can.

I love college.

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[09 Feb 2006|08:34pm]
[ mood | amused ]

I've eternally been right about that of which I hoped my analysis was unfounded, and just as often I've been wrong about that which I most fervently hoped to understand properly. However, what's far worse is when both combine and I'm left calculating posthumously exactly how all factors aligned to allow a metric fuckton of 20/20 hindsight to drop from the sky and emphatically not crush my world, but simply put little golf-ball dents of annoyance and frustration in its roof. Though it's not like you see the outside from within anyways.

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The Resurrected Dodge Challenger [11 Jan 2006|02:29pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]


6.1L HEMI. 425 horsepower. 420 lb-ft of torque.

This is what the Charger should have been.
And no, I don't care about owning your friends page. Consider this a gift.

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What the hell, am I getting old? [05 Jan 2006|04:44am]
The first day of school is Monday. I'm pretty excited, for the first time in my life. Speaking of firsts, it actually seems like my life is going in a good direction finally. I'm on the verge of getting my motorcycle finally, I'm actually going to get to learn (mostly) on my own terms for 4+ years (on scholarship, no less), I'm taking even more responsibility for (and control of) my life, and in summer I'll be getting my apartment. I'm going to Skip Barber (professional racing school in open-wheel Formula Dodge race cars) for 3 days in California. I've got a daily driver/project car 240SX that will take me more time and money to complete than I'll have in the foreseeable future, which also makes me immensely happy. I'm almost fucking 18. I even realized the other day that I do want kids after all. The more I mature, the more my opinions change. I guess this means I'm going to have to change an old maxim of mine. I don't want to die young, I want to die young at heart. Or perhaps more succinctly, when I stop changing, I need to stop living.

That's all for now, I have court in 5 hours. Fucking pigs.
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[31 Dec 2005|11:49pm]
I make my own fireworks.
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Life's too fucking short to dick around. [30 Dec 2005|02:36am]
[ mood | drained ]

I'm not sure what's worse
The waiting or the waiting room
"You're next sir" becomes a cruel taunt to you
Recycled air, the smell of sleep and disinfectant
Your God is a two door elevator

Do they even cure you? (Cut me open drug me)
Or is it just to humor us before we die (Repair all my defects)
If only we could heal ourselves
We wouldn't need to be hooked up to these machines

Let's redefine [6x]
What it means to heal

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[24 Dec 2005|08:10pm]
[ mood | happy ]

What a good way to wake up today.

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Everyone loves a fucking tragedy of epic proportion. [22 Dec 2005|12:22pm]
Sometimes, you just have to remember when things seem overwhelming or insurmountable, all you need is a change of direction.

It's when you think you've run out of paths to turn down that things get complicated.

This is for you, Jon Moxon.

Hey you, young love. Don't let them cut out your tongue.
Swallow the key to your heart and smile through your teeth.
Hey you, young love. Dont let them cut out your tongue.
It's only over when we choose to forgive them.
Give me your hand when no one else understands
The day the hostages start making demands.
We gave ourselves when there was nobody else.
We found what we were looking for in the summer.


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Paralyzed and paranoid, we withdrew the hands we held. [20 Dec 2005|04:43am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

She says live up to your first impression,
Well my best side was your worst invention,
Can't you live without the attention?
Can't you live without the attention?

If this is what I'm meant for, no longer interesting
Fall forward to even the score
Just a thought to you
I'm nothing more than a line in your book

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[07 Dec 2005|01:41pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

Your eyes begin to stare at the polygraph machine as you become aware of the
satellites that call her name.
It's as if the ocean swallowed the city lights that we fell in love with.
Paralyzed and paranoid, we withdraw the hands we held.
This is beginning to get ugly, dear.
You feed me to the lions.

Now the tongue becomes the bridge between broken teeth.
Now you feed me to the lions.
How we reach for the arms but only clasp the knees.
How we reach for each other only to die alone.
How we reach for the stars only to swim through the dead.
How we strive to connect only to fall apart.
Just between me and you I felt the rapture in your arms.

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[04 Dec 2005|10:45pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]

Not having a computer has let me get so much more done. And it's helped me differentiate between my real friends and my 'virtual' ones much better. Real life is just so much more entertaining, and it's just continuing to get better. But I've learned so much less than usual in this timespan, which sucks. I guess live and learn are more conflicting directives than they are concurrent. Irony.

My mom needs her laptop back now; I'm leaving. Permanently in 3 weeks. Schedule your time with me in advance. 5444807.

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College Update (for the people who don't talk to me but occasionally read my journal to check on me) [19 Nov 2005|12:11am]
Just got back from a reception in Orlando.

Accepted at UCF for Spring 2006 term.
$18,000 scholarship (If I get National Merit Finalist, it's $44,000).
Priority registration, guaranteed housing, invitation to Burnett Honors college, free coffee mug (for morning shots of iced 151 at Keri's, assumably), and so many more damn perks.
These people seriously seem ready to move mountains, or whatever cliche you'd like, to get me at their school in January, and hell if I'm going to discourage them.
Majoring in Computer Science, and going directly to FIEA for my master's. Go ahead, ask me about FIEA, I can go on for hours.
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[18 Nov 2005|01:57am]
Not saying I'm high or anything, but why the fuck does Taco Bell have to have so many goddamn Chipotle Grilled Stuft Burrito commercials? Oh god, I have to have one NOW!
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